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2005-03-26 - 1:02 p.m. Okay, so last night we went to the market place. It was so much fun!! We just kind of hung out. Me, Scott, Chad, Molly, Kathryn, Jessica, Theron, Tim, Cameron, and Cameron's friend Cotton who is as weird as his name. We couldn't decide what to do so we just mostly walked around going into different shops and got food and Jamba Juice. Yummer. Cameron's friend Cotton is kind of a stoner. But he's funny. But I kind of felt uncomfortable around him. I'm not sure why. Cam's friends are weirdos. But whatever floats his boat. Anyway, last night, Cotton was like, "So, Alicia, Cameron has something to tell you." And Cameron was like, "No, no I don't." And Cotton was like, "Yeah you do, tell her." And Cameron was like, "No, no nothing." And I was like, "Yeah, what Cameron, what do you want to tell me?" And he said, "Nothing, Cotton's being stupid. Shut up Cotton." And he looked all bashful and cute and I was like Oh man he so likes me! great, on the night I find out he has loser friends, I also find out he likes me, that kind of sucks. But I'm so excited to bug him about it tomorrow. He never did come out with it but Cotton kept bugging him about it all night. Grr. I wish he had just come out and said what he wanted to say. So I had these strange girls come up to me and say, "Hey, can we take your picture?" And at the time I was sitting next to this guy, Chad who my friend Tim had brought with him. So I was like, "Who, us?" And she was like, "yeah, are you guys like together?" And we were both like, "No." And they were like, "Well you guys should be, you'd be cute together. Can we take your picture?" So I started joking around with them and was like, "Why, you want to sell us to the white slaves?" And she was like, "No, come on, it's porn!" And I was like, "YES! I've always wanted to be a porn star, please take my picture!!" And we were just kind of joking around and they took a picture of us which was weird and then they leaned over and told Chad, "She's gorgeous, she's a keeper!" Hahahahahaha!!! It was sooo random and weird. I was like, you guys are weirdos. No, but I told her, "Well if some big fat white guy with a ten pound cigar hanging out of his mouth comes after me, I'm blaming you." And she was like, "Yeah, tell him Kelly says hi." Hahah. Weird. The whole night was weird, but fun. Cameron left really early which was sad. He left with a group of weirdo people that were all sitting around smoking and dressing in all black and had like tattoos and piercings everywhere. I'm sorry if I've just described you, but those just aren't the kind of people I hang out with and they make me feel uncomfortable. Like, Cotton was smoking when we pulled up and I know I can't judge people automatically by what they do that I may not approve of, but it's just something I've always been told is not okay. So it makes me feel uncomfortable and nervous. All of his friends seemed like that, but it's weird because he seemed totally out of place in a group like that. It was like he was trying to be such a poser. Which annoys the crap out of me as you may know from previous entries. When people are fake and try to be someone they aren't just to impress people, OOOH!!! It's like my biggest pet peeve ever! How dare they pretend to be something different just to fit in with other certain people?? I could rant about this for years and never completely get it out of my system so maybe I should stop. It just makes me worried about dating him because I don't know him well enough to know whether or not he does stuff like that, at which time, I will not date him. My standards won't be lowered for a guy. Ever. And I've made it perfectly clear to him what my standards are and he really respects them. He knows who I am, and he doesn't seem like he's trying to compromise who I am which is good. But I do NOT want to get mixed up in those kinds of people. Again, I know there are cool people who are just kind of messed up in that kind of stuff, and I don't mean any offense, but it's not the right thing to be doing and it's not what I do. He stands up for me and my standards though and I've made it clear my standards aren't changing. Anyway, enough about that, it'll all work out somehow and the fact that Cameron likes me has made me realize that there will be cute guys that like me even if Cameron may not be the ONE, which he probably isn't considering he's the first guy that's ever liked me like this. I mean, I've had other guys like me, but I haven’t liked them back, so this is nice and new. So I know there will be others if he doesn't happen. Which is comforting. My brother and dad are going fishing and us girls may go to a dollar movie in about an hour. Racing Stripes. Fun fun. I heard it was retarded. But it's only a buck so who cares? I have a church meeting tonight with my mom. It should be boring but there’s going to be food. Yay food. Teehee. Sad that food is my motivation, I know. Well, that's pretty much the update. I'll let you know how it goes with Cameron tomorrow. The knowledge that in a few days I may have a boyfriend is weird. I keep like getting weird chills all over because I've never had this and it's wigging me out!! Grr. I shall survive. Wish me luck for tomorrow! *Kisses*
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