2005-03-05 - 10:42 a.m.

Okay, so I had a freakish dream last night. I mean freakish, if you’d like to keep the illusion that everything I write is funny and happy go lucky, skip this entry because it kind of makes me look demented. I have no idea why I dreamed this, it’s so not like me.

So, me and my friend Aimee who lives down the street were being chased by this girl. Just randomly. I have no idea why she was chasing us, but we were running. It was weird because we were freshman and I guess this girl was a senior and I guess that mattered, because Aimee was screaming while we were running that she had lied to us and that she was a senior. I guess I had invited her to go to the mall and Aimee hadn’t wanted her to come but I told her it was okay because she was a good girl, but it turned out, right when she got there, she started chasing us and we knew she was going to kill us. It was such a bizarre abstract dream, but it was really scary. Like, she all of a sudden had all of these powers and was leading us on making us think we could beat her, but then she’d come out and beat us again and again and we’d have to run. It went on forever, it was a car chase at one time and then it went through the mall and we hid out in Aimee’s tree house for a while, but we could hear her breathing all around us and we could never tell where she was. And I remember, the most scary part was after all of this chasing and running, I had finally tackled her down to the ground and I was choking her and she was trying to get away and she was begging me to let her go and she was crying and trying to scream but she couldn’t breathe and I kept thinking, ‘Should I kill her? Should I kill her?’ And my mind couldn’t think fast enough and I couldn’t decide because I knew it was wrong to kill but I knew she was dying and I knew she would kill us if we didn’t kill her first but before I could decide if I should let go or not, she started laughing. I couldn’t figure out why she was laughing, because obviously she was dying. Her skin was turning blue and I still wouldn’t let go. I thought I had caught her so I pressed harder and harder and started making her promise to leave us alone and I screamed at her, “You can’t tell anyone! You can’t tell anyone!” But I have no idea what she knew that I didn’t want anyone to know. And through all of my begging, even though I was choking her, she just kept laughing and she wouldn’t answer me. She was turning more and more blue and I thought she was dying but she wouldn’t stop breathing. So finally her eyes popped open and she stared at me and was like, “I’m going to leap if you don’t let go.” I don’t know why I thought that was scary, but I was terrified of her leaping (whatever that was) But Aimee started laughing was like, “You can’t do that! No one can do that! Don’t be stupid, she’s killing you, you’re about to die!” And then, the girl turned a normal color and stood up with me still clutching her throat, and she leaped into the air like about 160 feet in the air and there’s me, hanging on for dear life and she started like whispering “I could drop you, Alicia, and you’d die. I could crush you and lick your blood from off of the sidewalk and make Aimee drink some too, I could do it. I could do it right now.” (I know, can you believe this dream came from ME??) And I was screaming for mercy and she was like, “Why should I spare you? You weren’t going to let me live.” So I was apologizing like crazy and crying and then she landed on the ground and Aimee grabbed me and we started running again and I kept thinking “She’s going to tell, she’s going to tell.” And I never found out what she was going to tell, but all of a sudden, she was in front of us and I looked behind me, and the traffic had completely stopped and nothing was moving. Everything was silent and she whispered; “Now you die.” So I looked at her and said, “I’m ready, just don’t tell anybody what you know.” She looked at me and laughed which sounded really loud because the world was so quiet and she said, “You’ll never know who I tell, but I bet your mom will cry.” So she started coming at me all slow and I knew I wouldn’t run any more, because it was pointless to run so I just waited and I woke myself up before I could find out how she was going to kill me.

*Shudders* isn’t that awful? The whole thing felt so real. I hated the part where I was choking her because I could feel her skin getting colder and clammier and it felt sooooo real! Ahhh! I haven’t had that bad of a dream in so long. If any one out there is a dream shrink and wants to analyze it, I’m totally up for suggestions. Don’t tell me it was a ‘stress’ dream, because duh. I have no idea why I’m having such horrible stress dreams when I have absolutely nothing to stress about. Really though, I have the lightest schedule in the world right now, I have nothing to be stressing about. I have a date to prom, I have a birthday party coming up, I have Molly’s birthday to look forward to, I have very little homework, my room is clean, I’m current with my homework, I mostly understand math, I have CAT testing, but those are dumb and I don’t mind them, so I ask you: WHY AM I HAVING SUCH HORRIBLE DREAMS?? Ugh, it felt so demented and real and gross. I wanted to die after I decided to kill her. It was horrible.

Anyway, on a lighter note: Today should be fun. I’m going to the movies with my family and I have to finish my chores and I have to take a shower. Everything else is done and I may be going to ‘Susical the Musical’ again with Molly. So, it’s looking exciting and there’s a chance that I’ll see Cameron tomorrow so I’m excited for that.

Alright, I’m going to go with my sad little demented mind. (I also had a dream last night that made me crack up in my sleep! I remember just laughing and laughing and I remember thinking to myself, you HAVE to remember this dream so you can tell people tomorrow. I remember having a feeling like I couldn’t even laugh hard enough it was so funny. And I remember thinking I was going to wake Marcus up because I was laughing so hard. It was weird, and that was before the nightmare. I had an odd night last night) Anyway, *kisses* I’ll write later!
Alicia

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