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2005-02-22 - 12:37 p.m. So I went to school today after staying up literally all night with food poisening. It was really miserable. And then today i had to sit through math and chemistry exahusted and still sick. Blah. I think I'm feeling better now but I'm still being careful. I'm going to ask current love to the prom on Sunday. All of my friends are giving me creative ideas but I think I'm just going to give him a note. I'm not usually one to be simplistic but it just seems to work more for his personality. I hope it works out, I don't want it to turn into some big embarassing fiasco. News spreads quicly in my school and my church so everyone would know very quickly if he said no. :( I'm really nervous about the whole thing but I think he'll say yes. Cross your fingers for me! Ebony came to school today and wrote me a note saying Molly had told her I was agry with her and asking why. Why didn't I tell her the truth?! Sometimes I think in certain ways I'm just as pretend as she is. I don't tell people what I feel because I don't want to hurt people's feelings. Although I think it was best not to get the Skinny Kow Kwad into a huge fight because of something stupid. I love how when we were all in England, they were so willing to confront me about what they didn't like about me, but when Ebony is such a jerk behind all of our backs, when she wears a mask as thick as she does, no one wants to unmask her. They refused to talk to her about it because they were afraid of her getting angry. My friend life is screwy. I finally talked to Rudy online yesterday. He hadn't been on in two weeks. I thought he had died. But no, he was fine and he's still embarrassed about being dumped by that little idiot Macy for that frog. Rudy is about twenty times as cute/funny/alive as this other guy but for some reason, she felt compelled to turn Rudy down for Frog boy. And so now Rudy will not come to any parties that she'll be at. That means I'll probably never physically see him again because when I go to a party, she's usually there. Grrr. Oh well, poor Rudy, I just feel bad for him. He totally let me vent to him about Cameron and how much I loved him. lol, now that's a good guy friend to sit through my ravings. Tee hee, he's a good guy, whoever he ends up with is very lucky. I was trying to find cutesy ways to ask cameron, but everyone serisouly goes all out. There's nothing just simple and small that I could just hand him after church. I'm afraid. I'm so nervous. I don't want to make him feel obligated to go with me. I want him to feel free to say no, but at the same time, I really want to go with him. That day that I asked him to go to the movies with me was probably a mistake because when he couldn't go, it made me worry about the prom. Yes he was grounded, and yes his mom said he was dissapointed, but it still worries me. I'm a pointless worrier. Well, I'm going to go. *Kisses*
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