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2005-02-18 - 3:04 p.m. Hi hi! Okay, I got back from school today having completely failed a math test and getting a 'c' on a Chem test. I was not a happy camper.( I go to a homeschool, but it's set up like an almost regular high schhol except I only go to school once or twice a week and most of my classes get finished in one semester so I can move a lot faster.) To add to my distress, I've been hungry for like three days now with no satisfaction. This diet sucks. I'm constantly looking at the clock and telling myself, "it's only three more hourse until lunch/dinner/breakfast, you can do it! You can make it! don't give in. go excersize and stop being lazy!' I feel like just giving it all up for loss and deciding to accept my body for the curvasiousness that it is. But at the same time, I really don't want to because I know I can do it and I want to see the weight come off.
On a happier note: I got to watch Andy sing. I'm Andy's unnoficial stalker. He doesn't know me, but I know almost everything about him. Starting with A: he is the hottest guy you will ever see. no lie, he is beyond gorgeous. The perfect smile puts you overboard when u were already drowing in his voice. I'm not exaggerating here, he opens up his mouth and this voice comes out that MELTS you. I had chills from the beginning to the end of his performance. And untrue to the term of 'stalker' I talked to him after the performance and told him how incredible he was. As hot as he is onstage, times that by ten and you get him up close. Ugh! Guys like that don't give a flying pickle if I live or die. Sad. I wonder what it's like to be one of those girls that everyone loves and every hot guy wants to date? Well, I guess Andy wouldn't pay attention to me even if I was Lauren Graham because he's gay. (Whoever knows who Luaren Graham is get bonus stars on their hypathetical crown) But there's such a thing as turning a gay guy straight, right? I totally could! Yay! I have a master plan! He's not the gay type of gay either, he's not effeminant at all, in fact, if I hadn't heard from my other friend Andrew who is bi that he dated Andy, I wouldn't have guessed he was gay for a second. I guess he just happens to like the wrong sex for me. :p sad and true. but heck, what do I care? I'm his unnoficial stalker, stalkers never get the guy/gal in the end anyway. Tonight is Friday! Yay! That means: Avoiding Ebony for all costs because I hate being around her, I get to sleep in tomorrow, and whatever comes up for me to do, I can do! I love the weekend. I'm kind of an introvert when it comes to weekends which is odd considering my personality but I would seriously much rather watch TV, read a book, rent some movies and vegge out then go to a big party. I don't know, both sound nice but this weekend since it's rainy, I feel all 'insidey'. teehee I got a call from the lady I'm going to be working for and secured my second job! I love homeschool for that reason. 200 bucks a week baby! that's not a lot, but it's enough for what I need. Especially sense they're just baby sitting jobs. I only have the second one until March though, but the first one is until the end of semester and then i'll finally get away from those kids! The boys I'll miss but their girl is best friends with the devil. They have a contract. AH! I hate her. and next Monday i have her all day. I hate working on vacations! Oh well, I'll live. I start my job next week. I'm going to get off now and stop boring you, if anyone's even reading this. My dog is barkind and whining, she hates other dogs and one is outside right now I guess. It's loud and annoying but she doesn't listen to me when I yell at her to shut up. Lol. at least she still loves me even if I'm mean to her. Okay gtg. *kisses*
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